Oh my god. I’ve just gotten in touch with my aunty who was there from the ages of 0 to 4 and she is telling me some fucked up shit. I’m totally scared to know what else she has to say. I talked about my experiences and what I’m trying to figure out and she has no empathy at all. She says she has been bad. And that her siblings were very sexual. This weird kinky fukn shit. She liked being peed on. At the age of 6. What the fuck. My family is Totaly Totaly fucked up even beyond what I knew. Incest on both sides with me in the fuckn middle. Is this what this really is. I’m so confused right now. I really need to go so my mind doesn’t explode.