Being in a constant pit of hell.  Reliving shit over and over then getting new memories is horrendous.  That’s the only word but fukn horrendous. 
Sometimes the pain is physical.  Like intense pain in the nether regions or chest crushing pain.  Not being able to eat because of the gag reflex. Triggered by said new information coming into view. Memories and flashbacks are what cause the thoughts and the nausea. The guilt shame and blame that i can’t shake.  So much i need to process that i feel its going to kill me sometimes.  Sometimes i just Wish it would.  Will medication help with flashbacks and memories or will only suppress emotions?  Due to flsbk and memories being something the brain controls. 

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