Ahhh peace in my mind finally. After a few hectic days if constant bickering back and forth about killing myself they’re finally gone quiet. I’ve learned to calm them a little by shhhhing them and saying that I’m here listening but I’m busy and i will listen later. Or i do listen and rationalise. Some times though i have no control. No idea of the change in my attitude. I do however notice the feeling in my brain. Like right now it feels light and quiet. Thank God because it has been quite chaotic as I.p puts it. I had emails in my drafts to her as well that were like arguments but i hadn’t sent as i wasn’t allowed. But as soon as it had been quiet i secretly sent them off to her. No point in trying to get half assed help. She’s the only one that understands or know about them. I think others know of my attitudes but not my alters. And i don’t think some of them will be happy with me but i don’t care. I really need help.