It’s horrible when you wake up in the morning crying and sad because you hate your life so much. So so much you want to constantly end it but Don’t have the courage because you don’t want to fail. Feel bad that you would leave People behind that need you. I feel bad feeling all this but this is not the life i want. Why don’t i get a say. Why don’t i get what i want. Nobody looks after me. Nobody cares about me. I wish we had never had kids then this would be so easy. I could do it. Or i could leave and get the life i want. We are happy. But i don’t know if I love them. It’s sad. Really sad.