I don’t think it means anything to anybody that I’m still alive. If anybody fuckn knew how hard it was everyday to just fuckn survive. Seriously i just want to fuckn leave it die. I can’t live like this anymore. My husband is woe is me. I have a hard life. For fucks sake you have no idea. Not a fuckn clue. Not only do i have to do everything and look after the kids i have a serious fuckn problem with my head and nobody to help me. He doesn’t get how i could just leave tomorrow. Leave him or leave this earth. Ughhh i just would love to end it all right now. So distressing when nobody important in your life really gives a fuck about you.