No of course is not distressing remembering or realising someone probably wanted you dead because you were a whore slut and that this person was entrusted with your care and they used you and other children. I’m sorry but this makes me revolt in horror. Now I know in some parts because I remember something from the other day. Don’t know what. Fuck man, how do you get some fuckn help around here. I’m stuck out and want to fuckn disappear and I can’t.