You really are alone in it when you have a mental illness. Some people just have no compassion or empathy at all and those people can be your nearest and so called dearest. Because I have not had sex with my husband (because I am 7 yrs old and traumatized alter ) he is angry at me. her. It’s bullshit, all her life is been about paying a price and yesterday she had trauma therapy and like she is going to want sex. No trauma is ever mentioned in therapy but just the thought of therapy triggers the others. So last night I made her cry cos I was happy that our t got me and he said he can’t deal with me tonight, so off the tears switch. Tonight I tried suggesting he goes out. There’s always something. Not enough money no transport no booze. When there’s drinks in the fridge and he could go if he wanted. No he doesn’t want to cos he wants to punch some cunt in the face. That triggered us it wasn’t nice. Because we know that some cunt is us because we haven’t sexually gratified him. 😦 fuckn life sux and everybody thinks I’m coping. Haha
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Hey that does suck 😦 Who can you talk to about these problems? If not your husband then who?
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Nobody
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Oh 😦
Well this might seem unusual, but if you want to talk to me about anything, you are very welcome to.
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Oh thanks. He just wants to ignore the parts and me be normal, whole well 7yr Olds shouldn’t have to have sex and that’s who I am. Why should she have to do something she doesn’t want. Ugh it sux
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Well you yourself aren’t 7, that’s just one part of you. I agree with you that you husband’s attitude sucks. Actually, it’s downright irresponsible to tell you to suppress your feelings and just ‘be normal’. I’m glad you don’t listen to him.
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Oh yeah, I think I’m 7. Well no I am 7, I’m brooke. I know she’s me and I’m her and we the same but I am 7. Is her husband not mine. Some parts like girls and other parts like nothing. Sigh. I don’t express I suppress in the real world, around him.
I just want to be real and be my own person
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Well you can start by growing up. So you’re brooke, that’s fine. Having other personalities is comparatively fine too. Staying the same age forever is not okay, it’s not natural . So be who you want to be, but don’t be a child in an adult’s body.
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OK but how. Suppose I should ask my therapist.
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Definitely you should. I certainly can’t give any magical solutions, only advice.
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Thanks
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You can talk to me whenever you like too.
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Thank you. He just wants to ignore the parts and me be whole, normal, fiction normally. But I’m not. And 7yr Olds should not be having sex with adults anyway. But because he doesn’t believe her about it and I can’t just switch like that he doesn’t realise it’s retraumatising. Wish I could switch on command Then I could just be the real host of this body all the time.
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Tell me something, are you the same one I talked to last week?
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I don’t think so. I remember it a bit I think. Or was it bitch
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No I’m brooke. That was boss with a bitch attitude they were probably Co concious with each other.
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You didn’t seem very bitchy 🙂
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That was good. I was boss mainly, who controls the amount of bitchiness
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Well that’s helpful.
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Sorry if it’s all fucked up
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