Monthly Archives: July 2015

What if you don’t like being Multiple?

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Discussing Dissociation

Don't Like Being Multiple

This week, the readers here have posted a wide variety of reactions to the idea that being multiple could have benefits.  If you haven’t yet read all the comments on that blog, please do so.  They are very interesting.

When people have DID/MPD, they have experienced life as a multiple since their childhood.  It is their norm – basically the only way of life they know.  Multiples typically have not experienced life any other way other than being multiple, even if they didn’t realize they were as split as they are.  Sure, one or two of the host personalities may not have a strong personal connection to what it’s like to be multiple, and many of them can deny the existence of the internal others to some degree, but the internal system as a whole would have been there for nearly your whole life.

And frankly, many DID’ers that…

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Tired

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So tired. So so tired. Depressed even. Most of the time we say we are not depressed because it is how we felt all our lives. How can u be depressed when this is what u been like since little. But i cant bring myself to eat. All i do is sleep. Last 2 weeks kids go to daycare i sleep. And thats not me. Its never been me to do that. What is wrong with me. I know no food will make me lethargic but ive survived on nothing before and jept going daily. This is different. Totally different. I just dont have the drive like i normally do. Im never allowed to b sorry for myself and wallow. Never so why now. Im so tired can i go back to sleep now? 

The Achilles heel – how, our core negative beliefs make us vulnerable. 

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Changing core beliefs.

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The Achilles heel – how, our core negative beliefs make us vulnerable.  Infant Achilles was dipped in the river Styx by his mother, holding onto him by his heel, and he became invulnerable, except the areas of his heel that were covered by her thumb and forefinger. Which later in his life became the cause of his defeat as was struck by an arrow.  

  Like Achilles, all of us have our vulnerable spot. We fight gallantly and manage to get across things and responsibilities, but when the negative core belief is triggered, we don’t manage it well we will end up in the disturbance. Everyone has negative core belief.

Aaron beck largely divides core beliefs in three. I am Helpless – I am worthless  – I am unlovable. These three core beliefs branch out in more than 100s of negative core belief. Negative Core beliefs are nothing but…

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Brooke

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I really want to talk to t tomorow but they alraedy want to hurt me for wanting to talk. Its not fair why do thay always want to hurt me when they know im in pain already. I just want say what i rekmembr and why im sad and why jobody cares about me. But they saying we cut u if u tell. Not allowed to tell. My head really husrts when they fightng me. Brooke 7