Oh well at least you understood. How are you? Apart from feeling unrepressed hatred toward paedophiles (what utter fucktards, plus they’re the only group people hate more than psychopaths. Even actual Nazis have it easier)
Well, sort of. I was working this year, because of study. Now I’m in a sort of limbo until class resumes in September. At some point I’ve got to leave France, but I haven’t really thought about it yet.
You didn’t spell it wrong, you just put the apostrophe in the wrong place. It’s “je m’appelle”. If I had actual plans, that would imply I was a functioning human being rather than than a psychopathic fool 🙂
It’s in my nature to avoid all pity as it makes me dissociate. I don’t deserve kindness and compassion and steer well clear of any positive crap People say about me.
Tell me, when I talk to you over a couple of hours (like now), am I always talking to the same person? Is Anna the host? It doesn’t worry me either way, I’m just curious.
Hahahaha not so drunk then. So what’s your psychopathic mind thinking now. Bored. …. So it says no psychos no druggies. Do you not do drugs. Have you tried any
It’s not my blog, not my responsibility to name it. God knows why it’s called “no druggies, no stooges”, the owner is an alcoholic (but don’t tell her I said that, lol)
The only drug I tried (apart from alcohol, tobacco) was sniffing solvents and random prescription pills and they was shit, so I couldn’t be arsed with anything else. One day I’ll get around to it, when I get so bored I don’t give a shit about the future. People frequently offer me drugs on the street in France, but it’s never the right time.
Gah, it’s getting light, but still feels like 11 o’clock at night or something.
A couple more drinks and I’ll stop the mask. I’ll just be some fucking arsehole.
You don’t have to have a fucking mask on if you don’t want to. Not with me. Then you’ll probably tell me to fuck off though won’t ya you asshole. Hahhahaha
Yeah, that’s it. I might be rude about DID, it seems very fake to me, especially since I never notice when the personality supposedly changes.
My left hand is really hot for some reason, maybe I’ve been sitting on it for too long. Fucking ridiculous.
I know for a fact that (real life) friends get freaked out by the blank stare brought about by drinking too much. Well, fuck them, that’s the “authentic” me.
I should get some fucking medal for still being able to write proper sentences….
I feel fake mate believe me. And it doesn’t mean i switch all the time. What happens with DID is that before the age of 6 a traumatic situation happened and instead of it happening to me anna it happened to baby. That’s my first split. She can’t talk and doesn’t normaly come out. DID is so not how the media portrays us. Anyway so the bad shit happened to my others not me. So theoretically i never experience trauma. That’s so Anna could wake up the next day and survive what she went through. This is dissociating. Our brain did it automatically. Then the next trauma somebody else came and dealt with and so on. I always said we and was told off. I don’t remember the trauma. Seriously. But they do. They all have their own. When anna was 6 she split twice in the one rape. One floated above and watched and the other took the rape. I don’t know it’s completely fucked to me.
My t said i have alot of ANP and that she doesn’t notice the rapid switching either right in front of her face so you wouldn’t be able to tell on the net. I wish i didn’t have DID
I have to admit not much of that makes sense at the mo, except you were raped at age 6 (whether real age, or ‘personality age’ it doesn’t really matter, still fucked up. If I have a soft spot of a bit of empathy, it’s for children, and I probably shouldn’t be admitting that to anyone). That has to be the cause, being raped?
You know that DID doesn’t officially exist, right? It must be fucked up to be a fairy tale in the minds of psych-whatevers (ologists, oanalysts, iatrists).
Haha your funny. You can think what you like. That was real age and it also happened before i was 6 but i don’t remember my other parts do. I only remember pieces. If you read up on it is trauma of abuse.
My first memory of Dissociation is being locked up in a room and not being able to get out. That’s not much but it was the circumstances of the others in the foster house. That’s baby she’s 18 months. That’s when i split and she stayed that age. I don’t expect you to understand care or anything
A fuckn baby what do you think. It’s cool you can minimise what happened to me if it makes you feel good. I’m used to that shit. Like i said earlier i don’t deserve anything nice or positive in my life I’ve learnt that.
Hahahaha as If I’m stupid enough to think any fucktard cares. I’ve dealt with worse psychos and your on my thread so you can fuck off. Oh im pissing myself laughing right now.
Good, that means you’ve underestimated me. When I’m sober, I’m gonna fuck you over. And you won’t even know, because you’ll be spazzed out as some other fucker.
No i couldn’t talk at all. I had all the words in my head but i couldn’t get them out. Luckily i had other alters who got through it was like a daydream. I got my reality you got yours i didn’t expect anything less from you actually i thought you were going to prove me wrong but ohhhh well
Your bringing out the psycho in me alright. You can say what you like because it isn’t going to hurt me. I think i worded my shit wrong and I’m not even fuckn drunk
Ahhh I’m not even in a reactionary mood. Is that even a word. OK. So for your thrill I’m so deeply hurt by your words I’m going to kill myself. Lolol Haha oh give me a glass of wine.
Well go on then, if you’re serious. off you pop. I know you won’t do it, but in all honesty one of my dreams is to talk someone into killing themselves. Any old idiot can murder, it takes a special cunning to persuade. It won’t be you, I can see that now.
Methods behind the madness. As well as you can’t really be tried for murder. But these days with the web you would have to be very careful doing it online anyway. I’ve seen some people get done for bullying until someone does top themselves. But i think that’s manslaughter maybe. Hmm
Yeah i think I’ve written about that before. I haven’t noticed it when I’m drunk but when I’m stoned different parts have different reactions to being stoned. You can believe me if you want to or not i don’t care. Hahaha no some of me is pussy but i told you Bitch is not.
You said last night did isn’t real. I lie alot to but not about the different parts. I did at first i Thought they were all fake. Until they started taking over and doing shit thinking shit Totaly different to me. Like it’s so fucked up i don’t want to talk about it. Off to uni for a bit. Hope your head wasn’t hurting this morning.
I could have made it up all in my mind. That would be great if i had. I don’t mind dissociating is like being in drugs but for free with a kick of fear added in.
adifferentlifebeinglived 
It doesn’t seem very fair to execute children.
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Whatever… i see the mistake in the poster. Kill all paedophiles
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Wasn’t that a very funny joke? Sorry, Lovely. It’s hard for me to know what could offend people.
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Not really but i seen your point.
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Oh well at least you understood. How are you? Apart from feeling unrepressed hatred toward paedophiles (what utter fucktards, plus they’re the only group people hate more than psychopaths. Even actual Nazis have it easier)
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Ben sick eh. Real bad just found out its criptosporidium. Blah
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Sounds horrible. So you have little creatures living inside you, eh.
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Yeah Hahahaha gross eh. Drank some tank water while away so it probably from that. How are you anyway.
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I’m fine, yeah. Getting steadily more pissed on the red wine I’m drinking, but all good. It’s not as though I have a job to go to tomorrow anyway.
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Haha good on ya. You not working cos you studying eh sorry i forget easily
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Well, sort of. I was working this year, because of study. Now I’m in a sort of limbo until class resumes in September. At some point I’ve got to leave France, but I haven’t really thought about it yet.
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Oh really leave France. How sad. Is that where you are originally from
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What are you studying
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Nooo, I’m British. But studying French, hence why i’m here. Plus it’s like the best country. Vraiment magnifique.
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My aunty goes to Paris all the time. She absolutely loves it there. Cool eh. J’emapelle anna
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Enchanté, Anna. I’ll have to stop calling you lovely now…
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That’s ok. I like lovely. I probably spelt J’emapelle wrong. What are your plans after study
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You didn’t spell it wrong, you just put the apostrophe in the wrong place. It’s “je m’appelle”. If I had actual plans, that would imply I was a functioning human being rather than than a psychopathic fool 🙂
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Whatever. Psychopaths function rather well i thought
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Probably better than someone with DID 🙂 But it’s in my nature to make people try to pity poor old me. Just ignore it, like you’re already doing.
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Hahahaha
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Fuckn eh. At least you don’t want to kill yourself all the time lol. I’d rather be a Dexter right now than a DID.
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Yeah don’t kill yourself. It’s not as good an idea as it might often seem.
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Back soon. Keep going on the wine
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It’s in my nature to avoid all pity as it makes me dissociate. I don’t deserve kindness and compassion and steer well clear of any positive crap People say about me.
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Well now that’s not true is it? Everyone deserves some positivity, especially someone who calls herself Luverley.
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Thanks but they don’t think i do. Some of my parts.
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Before this comment the Hahahaha was Bitch. She would be more psychopathic or of us all.
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Tell me, when I talk to you over a couple of hours (like now), am I always talking to the same person? Is Anna the host? It doesn’t worry me either way, I’m just curious.
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Sometimes someone else pops in. But mostly me i think. I’m still trying to figure it out
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Are you still up. It’s like 6am there ain’t it. Catch you later if you fell asleep drunk!!
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That’ll never happen! See,I can still write in complete sentences without typos. Yeah, it’s 5:53, but I don’t care.
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Hahahaha not so drunk then. So what’s your psychopathic mind thinking now. Bored. …. So it says no psychos no druggies. Do you not do drugs. Have you tried any
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It’s not my blog, not my responsibility to name it. God knows why it’s called “no druggies, no stooges”, the owner is an alcoholic (but don’t tell her I said that, lol)
The only drug I tried (apart from alcohol, tobacco) was sniffing solvents and random prescription pills and they was shit, so I couldn’t be arsed with anything else. One day I’ll get around to it, when I get so bored I don’t give a shit about the future. People frequently offer me drugs on the street in France, but it’s never the right time.
Gah, it’s getting light, but still feels like 11 o’clock at night or something.
A couple more drinks and I’ll stop the mask. I’ll just be some fucking arsehole.
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Oh i thought it was your blog lol. Yeah the future can look pretty shit sometimes.
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You don’t have to have a fucking mask on if you don’t want to. Not with me. Then you’ll probably tell me to fuck off though won’t ya you asshole. Hahhahaha
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Yeah, that’s it. I might be rude about DID, it seems very fake to me, especially since I never notice when the personality supposedly changes.
My left hand is really hot for some reason, maybe I’ve been sitting on it for too long. Fucking ridiculous.
I know for a fact that (real life) friends get freaked out by the blank stare brought about by drinking too much. Well, fuck them, that’s the “authentic” me.
I should get some fucking medal for still being able to write proper sentences….
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I feel fake mate believe me. And it doesn’t mean i switch all the time. What happens with DID is that before the age of 6 a traumatic situation happened and instead of it happening to me anna it happened to baby. That’s my first split. She can’t talk and doesn’t normaly come out. DID is so not how the media portrays us. Anyway so the bad shit happened to my others not me. So theoretically i never experience trauma. That’s so Anna could wake up the next day and survive what she went through. This is dissociating. Our brain did it automatically. Then the next trauma somebody else came and dealt with and so on. I always said we and was told off. I don’t remember the trauma. Seriously. But they do. They all have their own. When anna was 6 she split twice in the one rape. One floated above and watched and the other took the rape. I don’t know it’s completely fucked to me.
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My t said i have alot of ANP and that she doesn’t notice the rapid switching either right in front of her face so you wouldn’t be able to tell on the net. I wish i didn’t have DID
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I have to admit not much of that makes sense at the mo, except you were raped at age 6 (whether real age, or ‘personality age’ it doesn’t really matter, still fucked up. If I have a soft spot of a bit of empathy, it’s for children, and I probably shouldn’t be admitting that to anyone). That has to be the cause, being raped?
You know that DID doesn’t officially exist, right? It must be fucked up to be a fairy tale in the minds of psych-whatevers (ologists, oanalysts, iatrists).
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Haha your funny. You can think what you like. That was real age and it also happened before i was 6 but i don’t remember my other parts do. I only remember pieces. If you read up on it is trauma of abuse.
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I am very funny, I know. Everyone tells me so. It must be in my nature.
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My first memory of Dissociation is being locked up in a room and not being able to get out. That’s not much but it was the circumstances of the others in the foster house. That’s baby she’s 18 months. That’s when i split and she stayed that age. I don’t expect you to understand care or anything
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baby! it doesn’t even have a fucking name. hahaha. What are you like when baby rape victim is in control?
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A fuckn baby what do you think. It’s cool you can minimise what happened to me if it makes you feel good. I’m used to that shit. Like i said earlier i don’t deserve anything nice or positive in my life I’ve learnt that.
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it doesn’t make me feel anything. What happened to you doesn’t matter to me. But that’s just me. Doesn’t mean other idiots don’t care.
See, I told you it was coming you fucking saw now you’d better deal with it or fuck off.
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Hahahaha as If I’m stupid enough to think any fucktard cares. I’ve dealt with worse psychos and your on my thread so you can fuck off. Oh im pissing myself laughing right now.
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Good, that means you’ve underestimated me. When I’m sober, I’m gonna fuck you over. And you won’t even know, because you’ll be spazzed out as some other fucker.
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Hahahaha no i estimated that you would fuck me over and i thought i was wrong but I’m right. I worded it wrong. I don’t care anyway.
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a baby? like you can’t walk or talk or do anything humans can do? Or one of those advanced babies who can walk around and talk shit?
So many questions.
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No i couldn’t talk at all. I had all the words in my head but i couldn’t get them out. Luckily i had other alters who got through it was like a daydream. I got my reality you got yours i didn’t expect anything less from you actually i thought you were going to prove me wrong but ohhhh well
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What do you mean? How could I prove you wrong?
Bear in mind I’m on my last glass of wine, so not exactly myself, but some drunk fucker who will say anything for a cheap reaction.
I don’t want to lose you 😦
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Your bringing out the psycho in me alright. You can say what you like because it isn’t going to hurt me. I think i worded my shit wrong and I’m not even fuckn drunk
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Ahhh I’m not even in a reactionary mood. Is that even a word. OK. So for your thrill I’m so deeply hurt by your words I’m going to kill myself. Lolol Haha oh give me a glass of wine.
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Well go on then, if you’re serious. off you pop. I know you won’t do it, but in all honesty one of my dreams is to talk someone into killing themselves. Any old idiot can murder, it takes a special cunning to persuade. It won’t be you, I can see that now.
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Methods behind the madness. As well as you can’t really be tried for murder. But these days with the web you would have to be very careful doing it online anyway. I’ve seen some people get done for bullying until someone does top themselves. But i think that’s manslaughter maybe. Hmm
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Yeah, you’re right. But NZ – France / UK, what would happen?
I’m not going to do it online, it wouldn’t be much fun without the body to gloat over.
So, tell me, do you prefer the real James, or the mask?
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I like both
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Last night was fun, we should do it again some time.
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I’ll have to get drunk too.
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Yes, that would be interesting. And illegal, aren’t some of your people little children? 😛
I’ll have to be more open with you from now on, now I know you’re not just some sensitive little pussy.
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Yeah i think I’ve written about that before. I haven’t noticed it when I’m drunk but when I’m stoned different parts have different reactions to being stoned. You can believe me if you want to or not i don’t care. Hahaha no some of me is pussy but i told you Bitch is not.
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Why do you think I don’t believe you?
As for caring, I think I care more than most about being believed because I lie a hell of a lot.
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You said last night did isn’t real. I lie alot to but not about the different parts. I did at first i Thought they were all fake. Until they started taking over and doing shit thinking shit Totaly different to me. Like it’s so fucked up i don’t want to talk about it. Off to uni for a bit. Hope your head wasn’t hurting this morning.
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No, I don’t get hangovers easily. A measly two bottles of wine couldn’t give me one!
When people talk to me long enough they tend to end up talking about all that stuff they don’t like talking about.
Enjoy uni, hope you learn lots.
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Well i do have a pussy but I’m not a pussy
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Glad we’re being up front about that.
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I could have made it up all in my mind. That would be great if i had. I don’t mind dissociating is like being in drugs but for free with a kick of fear added in.
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Sounds wonderful. I’m surprised people aren’t queuing up to dissociate.
Here we go, I’m getting uber sarcastic and using stupid words like uber, I must be reaching peak drunkenness.
But can still spell drunkenness. Fuck you, God, you’re nothing.
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And this is where you say good cos i Dont care blah blah blah… predictable maybe mr sarcastic psychopath. Anyway I’m actually having a good time. Lol
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Wow. Like i care.
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Exactly.
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With the odd missing space…
Halfway through the second bottle of Saumur Champigny, who can blame me?
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Yum. I like spirits more
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