Ughh to many fuckn headaches Yeah. All this dissociating is a killer. Want to sh so bad i should just do it. Might calm the head actually. The abuse crap is just too close in my minds eye it hurts. Hurts everywhere. been finding clues of others and there thoughts there memories which then i find out about. I Dint really want to know them because it didn’t happen to me. But the headaches and that are really painful. Codiene don’t help. Necks sore. Tummy. All somatic crap i know it is and that’s why i never really complain to t about it. I so missed out on today. 1 hr is definitely not enough a week. Is not enough for a singleton let alone a group of people. My god im so sick of my head i just want it to stop. Everything to stop. Death looks so good right now.