Yay 2 week break and if all is well 22hrs a week child free. Hell Yeah! Well the others have been enjoying time with them alot and telling them we love them alot. Alot. We have to be here to protect them in life be good to them treat them right and i don’t want them to be traumatised by me. Today i cried in front of them. Really cried and i never do. Oh well. Just really wanted to talk to somebody who understands. I’m sad the decision was taken away from me. She’s just such a drama Queen. Can’t handle anything. Can’t do goals can’t do shit. Can’t handle emotions Just dissociated all day from everything. So now won’t go. But i must say stress level for her has gone down. Considerably. So we’ll just go with that for now.