I’m so fuckn Angry right now i could fuckn kill. Myself preferably but I’m getting closer to the edge of complete fuckn destruction. The walls are caving in and the secrets are coming up that aren’t too be revealed but its happening. It’s fuckn happening and it’ll be all over because she will be gone. and I’m thinking of quitting t because it’s too much and she doesn’t understand how deep this shit goes or how to help me or that I’ll be dead by my birthday and she’s going away again anyway. She might be able to help host but i don’t know nothings happened so far. So fuckn angry that actually we have nobody. Nobody to explain any of this crap. Why i feel the way i do why they feel the way they do. It’s confusing and the more i know the more i would rather just be dead.