So fuckn angry

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I’m so fuckn Angry right now i could fuckn kill. Myself preferably but I’m getting closer to the edge of complete fuckn destruction.  The walls are caving in and the secrets are coming up that aren’t too be revealed but its happening. It’s fuckn happening and it’ll be all over because she will be gone.  and I’m thinking of quitting t because it’s too much and she doesn’t understand how deep this shit goes or how to help me or that I’ll be dead  by my birthday and she’s going away again anyway. She might be able to help  host but i don’t know nothings happened so far.  So fuckn angry that actually we have nobody. Nobody to explain any of this crap.  Why i feel the way i do why they feel the way they do. It’s confusing and the more i know the more i would rather just be dead. 

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  1. I’m just angry that different parts have been trying to get help and i know i stop them but the professionals don’t know shit. Somebody told her about the programming and time alters and fire but obviously she don’t realise the importance of this year. And everything else. If they don’t get the help i end up dead to.

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  2. I wish I could wrap you in a hug and tell you it will all work out somehow but I won’t tell you that positive crap – it usually doesn’t help those of us who are DONE with it all. The truth is, sometimes it doesn’t work out, not in the way we had hoped anyway. Sometimes some of us have struggles no one else can possibly imagine! I want to say though to please hold on and don’t give up. Your life is worth something. I made it through a time where I was done with this crazy life and felt the rage you feel. All I can say is that I am glad I didn’t hurt myself or anyone else and I look back now and see how far I have come. It made me so much stronger – which I never saw back then, couldn’t see back then. I still struggle but it doesn’t kill me inside the way it used to. Hold on sweetness, just hold on and know you have people who care about you. I care!

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