today’s my wedding anniversary but 3 maybe 4 years ago i left for a break. it’s documented in old blogs i believe. i went for a break because i was dissociative and my husband was treating me like my handlers did. so why do i feel so sad today. this sux. he said last year he wanted to get back together but then he only used me for his needs again. it was not a holy marriage or ordained by God so maybe that’s why I’m still not with him. I’m barely hanging onto a thread right now and it’s been a rough week. i wanted to end my life. i can’t deal with all this I’m going through it feels like. People message me im strong and a warrior but i don’t feel it. it’s so lonely having no friends other than online. soon God is gonna change that and everyone is gonna want to be my friend so i will have to watch for the wolves.
i messaged him have a good day. i don’t know what else to say. he broke my heart so why am i so sad.