today’s my wedding anniversary but 3 maybe 4 years ago i left for a break. it’s documented in old blogs i believe. i went for a break because i was dissociative and my husband was treating me like my handlers did. so why do i feel so sad today. this sux. he said last year he wanted to get back together but then he only used me for his needs again. it was not a holy marriage or ordained by God so maybe that’s why I’m still not with him. I’m barely hanging onto a thread right now and it’s been a rough week. i wanted to end my life. i can’t deal with all this I’m going through it feels like. People message me im strong and a warrior but i don’t feel it. it’s so lonely having no friends other than online. soon God is gonna change that and everyone is gonna want to be my friend so i will have to watch for the wolves.
i messaged him have a good day. i don’t know what else to say. he broke my heart so why am i so sad.
The years of the awakening mk ultra life have Been hard. Painful. Excruciating. Long suffering. Frightening. Unjustified. Revealing. Many more words i could say but the one thing i thought i would never say was that God is going to restore all that and bring vindication and justice against the wicked. Father God will pour out peace and joy upon those who have suffered for the sake of the gospel and prophesy to be fulfilled.
Yes era not year! This is the beginning of something so huge and exponential that nobody can stop it. Yeshua is coming back soon and that means it’s harvest time. It’s also time for judgement on the church n state. A time for the righteous to speed ahead and the wicked to be stopped in their tracks. A time for joy and peace. Open doors that no man can open.
Many are focused on the evil too much and not balancing out and so they get stuck in the negative. I decree that they start seeing the good. I was there too but God rebuked me kindly and said it will only get bad attention so start sharing the good. Even though we may suffer for telling the good news it is worth it to suffer for Christ And eternal life in heavenly places.
I must put together my word for 2019. Now we are out the other side it is time!
In a previous blog, I told about “The Victorian House” … and about a book that pictured it … the house, the tree, and the picket fence … as well as a brass bookmark that had the same imagery. Well, the book was entitled, If Jesus Came To My House, by Joan G. Thomas. It […]
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Wow so powerful
Let me tell a story of a girl I didn’t know,
People hurt her, pushed her down,
Told her where to go.
Despite all that they did to her,
She never let them win.
No matter how they beat her down,
She never let them in.
She fought to keep her freedom,
She beat back with her mind,
Her body may have been small and weak,
But her strength was all inside.
They never got the best of her,
And after they moved on,
She put herself together,
And built a life hard-won.
Education and children,
Skills and friendships and more!
She used that strength inside her,
To overcome the pain from before.
The mountains that she climbed,
Grew bigger all the time.
One day I will know her,
And accept her mountains as mine.