I’m really struggling right now. I have no outlet. I don’t know wheter is safe anymore to blog or not. I don’t want it to be used against me. But emotionally i haven’t let anything out in a long time and shit is getting real right now. The time of the month and year right now is a huge fuck off trigger and i hope i survive the end of the month cos i haven’t been able to tall about it.
I’m so fuckn dissociated but i can’t let anyone know. So much bad stuff had been happening the last few months. I’m still in an emotional psychological sexually abusive marriage. Still being controlled even though i left. Professionals are involved and its hard. It sux but….. i forgot where i was going with this I’m so emotional
Oct22
Hi Loverly,
I’m sorry this time is hard for you. I hope you can stay safe during this time of year.
GEntle care to you and yours, Sl >
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I’m so sorry. Thinking of you.
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Thanks. Xo
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I am not thinking of you, but your post just pinged into my inbox so I thought I’d say hi. It’s been a while, lovely lady 🙂
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Hi. It had been a long while
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Damn, 10 hours ago you said that. I’ve checked it since then.
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Whatcha doin?
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Don’t you want to talk to me?
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Oh sorry i missed this it was dinner bath time.
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Awww, bath time. Cute.
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Right they are in bed. You probably are too. 😦
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I am, but I’m awake.
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How are things over there
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Dark, lol.
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But it’ll be getting light soon.
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Shit have you not slept all night
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Yeah, but earlier. I was asleep by 5pm, lol. So I woke up about 2:30 🙂
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Oh shit true. Have you been working or studying
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Studying. Who needs sleep anyway? 🙂
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Not me. What are you studying now
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Lol, I don’t know 😛 Tedium
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I got exam in psyc 106 November
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Oh? Are you ready yet?
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Kinda. Still got 3 weeks study
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That’s alright then 🙂
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Yeah. Fuck i hardly even went to lectures but already at 70% passing
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Fuck lectures 🙂
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Yeah its all online
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We basically pay fees for online content haha 🙂
This is the first time I’ve ever spoken to you from England. Weird.
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Really? Was the last time in France. I did think of you a few days ago. Well Bitch did
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Nah, I was in Spain the last time. Good old Bitch. She can get in contact whenever she wants obutler2609@outlook.com
As can you.
Who is this, anyway?
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Anna. Oh cool ill send you one
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Hi Anna. It’s been an especially long time since I spoke to you. The last times were all Brooke, Bitch and some drug-obsessed persona, can’t remember the name.
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Blaze! Well nice of you to remember.
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Can I ask, do you feel like one individual amongst many, or do you feel like a collective being with many different facets?
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One by myself
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By yourself? How so?
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Everyone leaves and i don’t dissociate
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You?
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Haha
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I really hope your situation gets better soon, I’ve been there and it’s intolerable. Big safe hugs- the younger ones want to know if you’re safe. X
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I am tonight Thank you. I got my real twins for the night. My husband let me have them. It’s very good distracting thing because some parts want to go to rituals and shit. . Bad time of year
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