Aug31

So fuckn angry

Posted on August 31, 2015 by Phoenix system

I’m so fuckn Angry right now i could fuckn kill. Myself preferably but I’m getting closer to the edge of complete fuckn destruction. The walls are caving in and the secrets are coming up that aren’t too be revealed but its happening. It’s fuckn happening and it’ll be all over because she will be gone. and I’m thinking of quitting t because it’s too much and she doesn’t understand how deep this shit goes or how to help me or that I’ll be dead by my birthday and she’s going away again anyway. She might be able to help host but i don’t know nothings happened so far. So fuckn angry that actually we have nobody. Nobody to explain any of this crap. Why i feel the way i do why they feel the way they do. It’s confusing and the more i know the more i would rather just be dead.

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silentlistener2510 on August 31, 2015 at 8:40 pm said:

Hi Lovely,

It’s nice to meet you. This stuff really does run deep. IF the t knows her stuff, she’ll go nowhere. It’s scary when the secrets are revealed. I’ll listen if you want to keep talking but you don’t have to.

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luvlee on August 31, 2015 at 8:45 pm said:

I’m just angry that different parts have been trying to get help and i know i stop them but the professionals don’t know shit. Somebody told her about the programming and time alters and fire but obviously she don’t realise the importance of this year. And everything else. If they don’t get the help i end up dead to.

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James on September 1, 2015 at 5:53 am said:

Don’t kill yourself, Luverley, you would be greatly missed – all of you.

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- luvlee on September 1, 2015 at 5:58 am said:
  
  Thanks i think i am more homicidal than suicidal but it includes myself doesn’t it. Doesn’t make sense i know. Nothing does
  
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  - James on September 1, 2015 at 6:27 pm said:
    
    Only kill someone once you know what you’re doing. And don’t tell Brooke 😁
    
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  - luvlee on September 1, 2015 at 9:28 pm said:
    
    Hahhahaha Yeah
    
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Amb on September 1, 2015 at 9:03 am said:

I don’t want you to die. I’m sorry that you’re hurting so much and that t can’t understand it. I care about you and I’m here. Many hugs, friend. xx

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breakingsarah on September 1, 2015 at 3:46 pm said:

I wish I could wrap you in a hug and tell you it will all work out somehow but I won’t tell you that positive crap – it usually doesn’t help those of us who are DONE with it all. The truth is, sometimes it doesn’t work out, not in the way we had hoped anyway. Sometimes some of us have struggles no one else can possibly imagine! I want to say though to please hold on and don’t give up. Your life is worth something. I made it through a time where I was done with this crazy life and felt the rage you feel. All I can say is that I am glad I didn’t hurt myself or anyone else and I look back now and see how far I have come. It made me so much stronger – which I never saw back then, couldn’t see back then. I still struggle but it doesn’t kill me inside the way it used to. Hold on sweetness, just hold on and know you have people who care about you. I care!

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- luvlee on September 1, 2015 at 5:13 pm said:
  
  Thank you very much. Xxx
  
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